Candy Crush

I told you
that I loved you
ten thousand times
with my eyes
before it fell
from my lips
How I’ve suffered
without words or touch
from yours

But I’ve lived
and I’ve made do
constructed a life
to live without you
and I even thought
it could work
until I realized
holding space for you
never has
because
you never show up

I can’t play
Candy Crush
and pass the time
on colorful
distracting things
pictures of sweets
and pretend
that’s what you’ve been
to me
when this is
nothing close
to a game
if only because
games are for
people who agree
to play by
the
same
rules