It’s what I do with shadows avoid the sneak attack of grief duck, dodge, and swing but it always finds me It’s the wicker that your flicker’s in six feet deep the saddest shape in all the land the small rectangle it leaves It’s the white one with a satin bow where I keep your … Continue reading
Phone rings at work How may I help I answer He has cancer She says Sinking in I begin counting hours breaths seconds of his Bracing myself because I know that he will and so my 6 year old inside rages and dies tearful fight of dark against light of what must be even if … Continue reading
I died I want to die I am dying but I live and I want to because you once did I hurt I want my ache I am grieving bleeding and healing because love fills the space in the atomic ache and there you live Continue reading
Stay here I whisper to myself as the trigger tingle before the migraine of grief grows and nothing wanted more than escape I stay here in this hurt because it’s worth what came before and it’s worth what comes After Stay here stay here stay here please stay I rocked and rocked tears streaming clutching begging … Continue reading
Can we talk about something for a minute? All the love and respect for Israel “IZ” Kamakawiwoʻole in the world and I know I’m going to internet hell for saying this, but his version of Over The Rainbow makes no goddamn sense. Of course IZ was a rad guy. He was talented and amicable, his … Continue reading
You act like I’ll always be here to hold you And I will in the marrow of my memory of who is me But never again in my arms legs or mind Not until we are stars again I hope this has been a good bye Continue reading
You think you’ve discovered me that you’re going to inform me of my label who I’ve been who I am but I’ve been here hundreds of years and it’s quite clear that I don’t require your validation or interpretation to continue existing because I am what I always have been no matter what I am … Continue reading
I told you that I loved you ten thousand times with my eyes before it fell from my lips How I’ve suffered without words or touch from yours But I’ve lived and I’ve made do constructed a life to live without you and I even thought it could work until I realized holding space for … Continue reading
It seems clear a still pond in the morning temporary escape idyllic picture in your head that makes you want to stay But when you jump in everything muddles around you the ripple effects carry on things and those you love have no choice but to be pushed away At first the cool is refreshing contrast to … Continue reading
Meet me at the place where your love for yourself slightly outweighs your love for your family and me for sour and spicy things for drawing and ways to escape Meet me with eyes and no words where we know that we’re heard honestly without shame this is not a fucking game but the ball is fully in your … Continue reading
