grief / patpatforever / poetry


What you were
just for a moment
when I first beheld you
tiny paper fingernails
eyes as deep as the cosmos
a perfect latch
tiny care bears
on your hat
between you and I
like the sky

The gendered normative
of your gifted toys
your favorite blanket
the music you liked
a spectrum of life
light and sounds
in 24 pounds
a whirl of
stickiness and sleepless nights
delight and curiosity
exasperation and wonder
until that’s

What you were
when I walked in
and I’ll never know
the reason
and I never got
to hold you warm again
though I rocked you
until we were both cold

You left
with my handprints
on your skin
and yours left
in my heart

is what I am
without you


2 thoughts on “Blues

  1. Julie-

    I read all of your poems and I actually got chills with this one. You are a beautiful soul. Your son’s soul will forever love on.

    With love,


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