To the mama who holds the other half of my heart and slight RBF friend of my soul maker of laughter perfectly timed with my attempts to swallow keeper of my secrets that I could never keep from you Sit down and listen here to me Know really take time to stop and hear how … Continue reading
Category Archives: friends
The Anatomy of a Friendship
You are the bones I am the muscle sometimes I stretch farther than I should and you support me as I heal Sometimes you break where you can’t bend and I hold you and help you remember where you belong though sometimes we switch places for balance You are petrichor and coffee redwoods and ocean … Continue reading
child loss / friends / grief / loss / patpatforever / personal crap / progress / sisters
Small Graces in Small Places
It was about a week after Patrick’s death that I chose to stop taking anti-depressants. What I was taking was wiping my mind clean every few minutes and I still have very few memories of the days immediately surrounding that time. I know I was surrounded by friends and flowers and well-wishes, but I … Continue reading
child loss / community / compassion / connectivity / friends / gratitude / grief / holidays / love / patpatforever / personal crap / triggers
More Lessons in Vulnerability
So this is what happens when I try to sit down and write in the morning: “_____________________ … Shit. I can’t think. Maybe it will help if I light some candles. Okay. I’m going to do this. Here goes. Open Firefox aaannnd… Facebook! Wait shit, no, not Facebook. Songza. Okay. ‘Downtempo Instrumentals’ sounds good, I hope … Continue reading
friends / grief / love / patpatforever / personal crap / poetry / SUDC
Some Times
Sometimes I catch myself laughing
and wonder how I could do such a thing
when there’s so much hurt
Sometimes I catch myself crying
and wonder how I could do such a thing
when there’s so much beauty
either way
it’s always because I love you Continue reading
30 Days of Gratitude: Day 11
Today was another big one. My stepdaughter was here and I spent the day with her and my other 5 year old daughter instead of on Facebook, where I normally check in at least a handful of times daily. I finished embroidering TBH on a beanie for Aiden and also managed to embroider eyelashes onto Piper’s new bear, … Continue reading
30 Days of Gratitude / Autumn / cosleeping / friends / life
30 Days of Gratitude: Day 10
I’m making a mindful effort to try and focus on what is simple and important about life this month and pushing my own limits in trying to write every day for 30 days (something I’ve never done before) as well as focusing on things to be grateful for- something that has lead me on the … Continue reading
