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More Lessons in Vulnerability

So this is what happens when I try to sit down and write in the morning: “_____________________ … Shit. I can’t think. Maybe it will help if I light some candles. Okay. I’m going to do this. Here goes. Open Firefox aaannnd… Facebook! Wait shit, no, not Facebook. Songza. Okay. ‘Downtempo Instrumentals’ sounds good, I hope … Continue reading

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Grief and Gratitude

It’s Thanksgiving and I can’t seem to stop shifting from sadness beyond measure, gratitude, and complete nothingness. At least gratitude is there, although the latter seems to be the most present.  The writing just isn’t happening. I have to rewrite every sentence,  sit and think, have nothing to say then decide to just say that, … Continue reading

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30 Days of Gratitude: Day 14

So, I skipped day 13. Not due to superstition, like how hotels don’t call their 13th floors 13th floors (or stranger still, keep a small, unusable space to occupy the space between the 12th & 14th floors) although that’s the feel this is just going to have to keep. I spent hours last night consoling … Continue reading

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30 Days of Gratitude: Day 12

That juuuust might be enough. Maybe. Monday is so…. Monday. I prepped in usual manor this morning: Coffee. Lots of it. I’ve had a pretty slow day, considering most of it was spent holding Patrick, who is teething like crazy right now and breastfeeding on demand- which helps take the edge off, for sure- but at … Continue reading