Holding space for my own pain is the hardest part about right now. It’s difficult as fuck. I mean, there’s a lot to my current situation, but allowing the sadness of many layers of it to really be felt is highly uncomfortable to say the least. Like, the “not getting out of bed for two … Continue reading
Some days all I do is miss you it comes out of the blue like a star fell and burned straight through my heart and it’s all I can do to get through the day without your arms reaching for me and I miss the feel of each individual finger of your left hand upon … Continue reading
95 Fridays and I still keep count ever increasing numbers they’ll still never surmount or even touch the aching vacancy the numbness that I hold it’s just a silly way to find some sense within my soul because your ab-sense is exactly that away from logic fact or study away from any truth except goddamn … Continue reading
Because of you I know whom my world can do without and whom I would miss every single day if I couldn’t find so I connect Because of you I can take a breath or fifty or ten thousand and wait knowing full well that time is the only gift we can truly give and … Continue reading
Each morning with the growing light My eyes constricting from the sight I fumble back from dreamless night A lightning bolt within me strikes and I know that something is just not right A reverse process begins within my frame Every day since the one has started much the same My thoughts fall through the … Continue reading
February 8th is a hard date for me. Now that it’s not impending and looming over me, allow me to attempt to describe the first one’s impact on me and my life and why I know how many Fridays it’s been since. On Friday, February 8th 2013, I went through a nightmare I thought at … Continue reading
I need to vent. I had a CRAZY hard weekend, beyond simply my grief and hectic family life. Continue reading
