child loss / friends / grief / loss / patpatforever / personal crap / progress / sisters

Small Graces in Small Places

  It was about a week after Patrick’s death that I chose to stop taking anti-depressants. What I was taking was wiping my mind clean every few minutes and I still have very few memories of the days immediately surrounding that time. I know I was surrounded by friends and flowers and well-wishes, but I … Continue reading

back to school / cannabis / fucksudc / grief / herbs / life cycles / loss / marijuana / medical marijuana / patpatforever / personal crap / progress / writing

The Soul in my Soles

Gosh, I’m so picky! No wonder I haven’t been writing. I’ve had to adjust the lighting, change the music, redirect the angle of the blinds, get more coffee, check on the kids, check my email, use the bathroom, get MORE coffee, adjust my chair, put my hair back up, and finally just sit the hell … Continue reading

breastfeeding / conceiving greiving / connectivity / grief / healing / loss / melanoma / PPD / pregnancy

Conceiving & Grieving: Why I’ll Be Breastfeeding This Father’s Day

Breastfeeding and Father’s Day: The two may not be linked for most people, but for me, they are two equal and opposite parts that equal the same whole.I started writing this post even before bringing getting banned from Facebook for posting a breastfeeding photo over Memorial Day weekend, which gave me even more time, opportunity and drive to examine … Continue reading